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07 October 2012 @ 09:49 pm
okay, so this be my first proper journal entry lol;
this weekend has been one full of parties and metings everywhere; even yesterday I had to travel to a very aparted town in the city outskirts, because it was a dear friend of mine's 15th birthday.
Heck, I haven't seen her for about 2 years yet she stil remembered me and invited me; it was funny since most of the friends hse invited were all those peeps from elementary school, it was funny; even though neither she nor me wanted/liked/couldn't dance at al, the other fellows pulled us to the dancefloor and we all ended up as a bunch of sweat and awkward.
She also likes k-pop -more especifically BIGBANG- and the only music aviable in there was house music, cumbia and 90's
mexican pop, heh, I only danced to the last genre since I don't like either cumbia or house music. Still, the moment she said her thanks speech the background music was haru haru, and they made it really beautiful. I was so inspired by the words she said to everyone present in the room that tears started rolling down by my cheeks. I was so embarassed for crying I couldn't even look straight at her, and that piano cover of that beautiful song just made things worse.

She even recited a fragment of the song (in spanish ofc) for us, the friends she doesn't see anymore, and those friends she is no longer going to see after this school years ends.

[길을 걷다 너와 나 우리 마주친다 해도 못 본 척 하고서 그대로 가던 길 가줘 자꾸만 옛 생각이 떠오르면 아마도 나도 몰래 그댈 찾아갈지도 몰라]
If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly

After that part, I just couldn't take it anymore and bursted into tears.
Because I somehow feel the same for my friends;
those who I can't get to see anymore; those who I am going to miss next year when I get into High School, but that's life.
In 40 years or so later, I will remember my days in Middle School and probably realize it wasn't as dark as I thought before.
So many feelings...

So, what if I encounter them after a long time?
Will I just act like that girl in the song, pass away and act as if I didn't notice?
I somehow feel the same way about my interenet friends...

01 October 2012 @ 10:02 pm
Okay, I'll start off by saying I just don't know what to do anymore.